I’d rather be single than waste my time on somebody who’s not gonna take me seriously. I’d rather watch other couples be happy than be in a relationship where I’m gonna be miserable. I’d rather feel lonely than feel alone even when I’m with somebody. I’d rather wait until someone comes along & genuinely wants to be with me, than rush into something with someone who just wanna play games with me. F*ckk all that nonsense. Too many people just wanna ‘have fun’ nowadays, which is fine cause at our age, I don’t blame you, it’s normal. But don’t do it at my expense & hurt me while you’re at it.

(Source: x-pure-love-x)

Your The Reason Why I Have Trust Issues..

Now a days you can’t trust anybody. You said that your motto in life is “trust nobody” but then you get mad when I say I don’t trust you yet. I let go, I put down my wall, and let you in. Then now look what happened. You just taught me to not trust anybody no matter what they say. Thanks a lot. I really thought it would be okay, but what u said is making it worse. I thought we ha something, but I guess it’s nothing. Glad to see that you care..

Writing A New Story. Comments Please!

I am writing a new story, and I have about three pages done so far. It would be awesome If you can read this and give me imput. DONT WORRY, THIS IS ONLY THE FIRST TWO PARAGRAPHS. (: _________________________________________________________

  I hope it’s a dream, but I haven’t even fallen asleep yet. It was out of

the blue, nobody saw it coming. It almost seemed like it was planned,

but the note says differently. You wrote the note in a hurry, I could tell by your handwriting and because you wrote in red pen; you never ever  write in red pen. Were you forced to write it? 

It’s the morning of my mothers funeral. Where are you? Your weren’t home last night, then again, you haven’t been home for the past three nights.  You have been saying that you were taking care of business and law stuff pertaining to her death. I believed you at first, but now your hiding something. You would never answer my calls or texts, and today doesn’t change that. If you miss her funeral, I will never forgive you. Its thirty minutes till we have to leave, and your still not home. Im already waiting for you, the driveway gates open and its your car. You lazily drive up, and causally walk into the house. 

“Where have you been? We need to leave or we’ll be late.” I said, honestly not caring where he has been, I just wanted to leave.  

“Don’t worry about it, I just have to grab something and we can leave, get in the car.” He was hurried, trying to hide something in his pocket. I didn’t notice when he walked in, but he is all dressed. He’s clean, shaven, suit and tie, and is wearing cologne. I get into the car, and there is a smell. This smell is recurring, especially when he has been gone for awhile. I never have asked him what it is, because I don’t think I could handle the truth.  

The funeral seemed like it lasted days. By the end, I couldn’t shed one more tear. As they ran down my face, I was running down memory lane; I was running towards you. I remembered all of the nights that it would just be me and her at home while my dad was at ‘work’. She would bring home Chinese food and movies. Those were the best, but those quickly faded away. The memories of her hurting, being tired, and sick came into mind. The time right before her death. It was like a spring flower that had bloomed for so long, died over night. I saw the flower dead, and should of watered it, but I just thought the flower will bloom again in the morning. I try not to think of the bad memories, it wont help at all. 

 

Havent Been On Here In A Long Time!

I have been so busy with Sophomore year! Plus adding softball onto that. A lot has happened since then. I have been writing little short emotional exerts that Ill post on here, and other stuff that’s going on in my life

One Day Changed It All </3

We were so close, but then you just walked away. Why? You gave me a reason, but it didn’t make sence. You made it seem like it was all my fault, but no it wasn’t just mine. You could of prevented what ever happend, that made you turn away. I didn’t know that you had “morals” or whatever against it. You never told me. So how was I sapposed to know? Don’t Try to play that card on me.

The things that gets me is that you burned the bridges before you broke the news to me. You unfriended me before you sent that txt. Thats what hurt the most. Now we don’t even txt or nothing, one day you were in my life, and the next; you were gone.

I can’t say that I’m pround of my life, but I can say I’m proud that I’ve learned. I’ve learned that I can’t rely on rely on everyone. I know some things don’t work out, and i know that eveything that has, has worked out for the better. I can’t guarentee that i will walk around with a smile, but i know where I’ve been and where Im going. I know who i am and who my friends are. I have had some tough stuff thrown at me, but I’ve gotten by.

You Droped A Note And We Changed Key. You Changed Yourself, And I Changed Me. I Really Didnt See Us Singing Through This. Then You Screamed The Bridge And I Cried The Verse, And Our Chours Came Out Un-rehursed. And You Smilled The Whole Way Through It, I Guess Maybe Thats Whats Worse.

Mayday Parade - If You Wanted a Song Written About You All You Had To Do Was Ask

If You Can’t Live Without Me, Why Arn’t You Dead Yet?

Mayday Parade<3
Lmao.

Lmao.

Love this song &lt;3 Means alot to me.

Love this song <3 Means alot to me.